Wednesday, November 19, 2008

State of the Union

So I'm at work right now. I am freaking out about the amount that I have to get done - and yet here I am...

It reminds me that quite a few of you lovelies have asked me how I'm doing with the relatively new job. I can give you an idea in general terms, since my new discretionary rule precludes this very topic from my blog...

So this job is a lot more work and responsibility. Some days I love it, and some days I love it a bit less. But on the whole? It's a much better place for me. I feel kind of zen about it. I know that I am working towards something that matters and I know that what I am doing is necessary. That is important to me.

Now that being said, it's a good thing that I've done a lot of independent work in my life. When I worked for a race track, I got sent to off-track locations to do my thing. I would be alone for 6 - 10 hours per day and only have time to scurry to the ladies room when there was enough time between all the races that were about to go. This could sometimes take a while.

My last job was better, I would generally have at least one, if not two other people working with me. But still, there were times when I would have these intense moments of solitude.

And now? I am it. There's my boss who's AVP of whatever and I am my own Universe (and nobody calls me Princess around here). I generally stop by her office every couple of days to ask the odd question. But on the whole? Pretty much alone. I perhaps should remove "able to work in a team environment" from my resumé.

But, my doctor has declared me "cured" from what ailed me. As I've mentioned, I'm now off the crazy pills. And I broke up with my therapist months ago. I have no doubt that I will end up in therapy again, but for now I'm coping. And I very rarely have the dry heaving in the morning like I did for the last 2 1/2 years at my other job. And self-harm? Well, I manage to push those thoughts away more easily.

So "cured"? No. Better? Yes. I imagine a lot of people feel at the very least a tiny twinge of dismay at the thought of being hit by a bus or catching a fatal disease. Unfortunately, I'm still of the camp that thinks that sounds like a release. BUT, I don't think about it all the time like I used to. So no worries my darlings, you'll still have my girliness around for a while...

On the upside of life- I am still enjoying the bus, even though the weather has changed. I have done a large portion of my Christmas shopping, and know what I'm buying for most everyone else. I bought myself some sexy knickers yesterday. Gas is down to 89.9 cents per litre. I think I'm going to see "Twilight" with K and her husband this weekend. (Go team Edward!)

Oh, and so far Pru is the only person who actually entered my contest with any wishes. Is she the winner? Contest closes at the end of the week. (I'm willing to open it up to, give me 3 wishes of ANY kind- just not all "I want world Peace-ish" I want totally selfish wishes)

Ok, back to work. I have 5 more meetings this week to prep for.



Friendly Manitoban said...

My selfish wishes:

1 - I wish to give birth RIGHT NOW

2 - I wish to be the only person in MY skin

3 - I wish to have a painless easy birth before this day ends.

PinkPiddyPaws said...

Wow.. I don't think I've ever heard of anyone's doc proclaiming them "Cured". I mean, think of all the revenues they would lose. :)

Tell you what Princess. I'll trade ya. I would MUCH prefer working alone and yet here I am surrounded by tards. You take my job, I'll take yours. 'kay? ;)

Jest said...

Way to go on being nearly done your Christmas shopping. People like you impress me. A lot!

Princess in Galoshes said...

I'm glad to hear the new job's going better, at least! And I don't know if we are ever "cured" but it sounds like you're headed in the right direction, so that's a good thing. Stick with it.

Sorry I'm late to the contest, much traveling recently! But my three wishes would be:

1) Looking less "wobbly" when I'm on top. I envy the girls in the movies who make it look sexy.

2) Having sex in a fabulous hotel. Our house is getting kind of... routine.

3) There's a dress at Anthropologie that I am totally coveting, but cannot justify buying. It's not really sex-related, other than I think I would feel fabulous in it, so my darling husband would probably have a better chance of getting laid were I to ever get to wear it... maybe I should pass that tidbit on to him.

Jen said...

I say, "Go Team Princess!"


Jen said...

P.S. I think I missed many a post through my blogger friends by taking a break. So, my selfish wishes are as follows:

1. I wish to be 40-pounds lighter.

2. I wish to not have to pay more taxes now, thanks for that voters.

(don't send hate mail, it's my belief & since we are lucky enough to live where we can believe in our own beliefs, so be it.)

3. I wish to be able to run and finish my marathon coming up in April 2009.

the frog princess said...

Yay sexy knickers!!

I will go do your meme right now, because sexy wishes are fun :)

Chief Rock Chef said...

Good to hear things are going well for you. I worried about you a lot when you were at the old job, but you have seemed a lot better since you moved.

Competition? Must go back and find it - or was it the Girls only thing?

Chief Rock Chef said...

Ah, it was for girls only! Do I get to play if I put on my tiara? ;-)

Psychgrad said...

I was having a hard time with my three wishes because only really raunchy stuff was coming to mind...

So - if the wish allowances are more flexible, I'll go with:

1. I wish that I was finished my PhD, defended and all.

2. I wish I were pregnant. Not that I'm trying...not that I want a baby at this exact moment. I just am curious what it feels like.

3. I wish that summer were every second season.


It sounds like you're doing much better. I'm not sure if it's the blogging discretionary or being in a generally more positive working environment, but I would imagine a lot of how you were feeling came from the previously unhealthy work environment.

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