This Was a VERY Long Post Just to Tell You That I'm Sick

So I was talking to my Dear Anon a few months ago and mentioned that I was feeling under the weather.
She responded that I'm sick ALL the time.
This both shocked and insulted me. Surely I'm not sick that often...
So to prove her point she went to this blog and counted all the times I'd mentioned that I wasn't well. (This was before I deleted all my earlier posts).

I don't remember the exact number, but it was quite a bit. And Lord knows I don't mention it every time I'm feeling sniffly.

Except today. I. Am. Sick.
Everytime I walk into my boss's office she asks me if I'm going home.
No, I just have a question.

You see I called in sick last month. I've only been here 4 months. I don't care if I'm on death's door. I am going to be here every single day until January. I have given myself permission to call in sick next year if need be.

The problem is two-fold.

1. I have severely bad allergies. I'm pretty sure that when I called in last month it was because of an allergy attack. Which is dumb. I should have just toughed it out and come in anyways. Cause really? I feel crappy most of the time. I pretty much always have a headache. And frequently feel kind of dizzy and weird in the chest. It's just life now. The problem is, I can't always tell the difference between being sick and having a really bad allergic day.

Symptoms:
Scratchy throat - could be either cold or allergies
Headache- could be either (or stress or any number of things)
Tight chest- could be either (again, or stress)
Nausea - stress or cold

So many things could simply mean that I either should go back on my anxiety meds or that I need to up my allergy meds.

So I don't know what to do most days when I don't feel well. (Apparently not mention it to my Dear Anon- I would like to thank her for making fun of me for being sick, rather than being alarmed that perhaps I might have some terminal disease).

2. My last job. (Which I am NOT talking about here). But let's just say that due to various circumstances, I might have called in sick at my last job a bit more freely than I should have. So I think I need to re-train myself to get into the habit of ignoring my sickness and just coming in. I need to remember that I am still new here and that people here seem to come in everyday. In my 4 months, I've seen no one call in sick.

It might even be three-fold!

3. I am a neurotic headcase. I get stressed out far to easily. I can't even blame my last job for this - as I think it's just part of my nature. So if I'm throwing up in the morning? Odds are, it's just cause I'm apprehensive about some sort of work situation. Not an acceptable way to cope.

Anyhow. The moral of all this? This week I just have a plain, old-fashioned cold. And it sucks. And I am coming into work if it kills me. Even though I feel compelled to disinfect everything I touch now.

End post.
xo