Monday, July 06, 2009

Kicking it with the Vampires

It's so easy on a blog to write about the bad memories. The things that make you sad/angry/frustrated etc.
And it's easy to just post a list of things that are good in your life.

I've done both in this little corner of the bloggiverse.

But I've never really taken the time to think about what really makes me happy, and what do I really want to do with my life?

I think part of my restlessness comes from the fact that I don't really have goals for myself. I don't have a list of things that I want to accomplish by the time I'm 30 40. Whenever I read my actual diary I see restlessness. An inexplicable unhappiness with my life. And while I know that I could talk about some things in my childhood that are therapy-inducing, I also know that I shouldn't be as unhappy as I am.

You see for all the volunteering, and doing things for friends, and decent jobs that I have - I'm not really working towards anything. If someone asked me what my dreams are, I think I would have a hard time outlining something concrete.

And so? This is what I am doing.
Outlining some things in my life that genuinely bring me joy and from that - perhaps turning it into some sort of Bucket List.

And no. I'm not going to make it up on the spot, and force you to see my drafts right now. I think it's a project worthy of some time and polishing. I will perhaps post it up later - with some long and short term goals, maybe with some pretty pictures.

But I am curious- what's on your list? What thing is on your list that is totally uniquely you?? (i.e "Travel more" does not qualify. "Travel to Transylvania to party with Dracula" totally does)



Kyla Roma said...

Great idea! On my bucket list is definitely going somewhere exotic on an adventure, like to India or Thailand, with Mister before we have babies. I want to get that out of my system so I don't run off to India for months at a time when I have young children, like my mom did.

Anything I can do to quell those urges is a good thing!

MonsteRawr said...

I made such a list a few years ago. It contains everything from, "• I want to go to Dublin and get plastered," to, "I want to own a lot of hats." I like to look over it and revise it, either removing goals or crossing off those that have been completed, every couple of years. I think it's interesting to see how my goals and desires change as I get older.

Becky said...

I've been working on my own Bucket List for about 6 months now. I do want to go diving with sharks :)

For me, its always easier to focus on the negatives that I have going on. I'm trying to be more positive lately!

delmer said...

My list is rather tame at the moment.

I've always thought taking flying lessons would be fun.

Bike tours are at the top of my list too. Not guided ones, though. I thought I'd start with Toronto to Montreal or Montreal to Quebec last year. I planned it out but time got away from me.

Rock Chef said...

I am hoping to get to Gettysburg in 2013 for the 150th anniversary of the battle.

I am also hoping to travel the width of Canada one day (meeting you on the way of course!).

I also want to get back in a band and play gigs purely for the fun of it.

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