Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Shallow?

OK, if you're morally opposed to weight loss blogs, then I suggest you mark this post as read right now. I promise to write something extremely provocative and diverting for next time.

OK, who's left?

First of all, I have to say that I have been on WW for a little over a month now, and have lost 14 pounds. Record-breaking? No. But still good.

I haven't done any kind of major cheat yet. I've dutifully tracked each point every day. I find it fortunate that I appear to have the right kind of personality for this tracking, point calculating thing. However there definitely are some things that I've found surprising about this whole process.

1. I don't really care about no chocolate/cheesecake/burgers etc. I get enough of those little 100 calorie desserts that I don't really feel deprived. I don't eat them everyday, only when I have some points left over for them.

2. What I miss? The top contender for that is cheddar cheese. Absolutely.

3. The point tracking? Is occasionally a pain in the ass. Tonight I had to do a bunch of math to convert grams into ounces then ounces into cups. Only to find that pasta really isn't worth it anyhow.

4. The Safeway "Eating Right" brand? Is awesome. It has an interesting variety and is genuinely really good for you. Love it.

5. I grocery shop ALL THE TIME. It's annoying. Probably because I'm eating at home so much. And probably because it's mostly fresh food. But still, somehow I don't feel that I'm saving money by not eating out so much, since I'm easily spending $100.00 each week on fresh food at the grocery store. Ugh.

6. It's annoying that I think about food ALL THE TIME. And not in a dreaming about cheeseburgers kind of way. But just because I have to plan out my menus so much. And I feel like this diet thing has become all-consuming. I don't know how I would do it if I wasn't a single girl living alone.

7. I also think about how I will look way too much. I am dying to lose enough that people will notice. It hasn't happened yet really. If I do this sensibly I should be at my goal weight sometime in the spring. That's a long time away.

Honestly, the worst part about all this is just how much I'm thinking about it. I really feel like I've become one of those self-obsessed people who only care about how they look. I am really not much fun to socialize with now if it involves food. Food is just such a part of how humans gather together. Dinners. Coffees. Girly lunches. Dessert. Snacks with movies. Ugh.

And do I have to do this forEVER? Am I going to be this self-involved and annoying until I die? Is it worth it?

Cause let's face it people, a lot of this is done strictly for the sake of vanity. I want to look better. I want boys to look at me. I want girls to be jealous of me. I want to be able to shop in ANY store. I don't want to look in the mirror and feel like crying anymore.

I know those aren't the reasons that an enlightened independent woman should have. I know that I should be doing it for my health or my own sense of well-being or something like that. But honestly? I don't think those reasons would be enough for me to carry on. My own health? Nope- we all gotta die sometime right?

But? Looking hot. Wearing cute little dresses. Being admired.

As long as I'm not catty about it, those aren't totally terrible reasons are they?

Are they?

12 comments:

Sheila said...

Well, I'm self-absorbed and annoying all the time and it seems to work pretty well for me.....

Seriously though, congratulations on your weight loss. It is not shallow to want to look and feel good for yourself. Really truly.

I wish you much luck on your endeavors to be the vainest bitch on the planet. For realz.

xoxo

Karen said...

My problem with WW is that I don't factor in what I am drinking. As in the 3 cocktails I had last night (though they were vodka and DIET soda.) So that is like 6 or 9 points. Damn!

Good luck, Lady!

Hilly said...

Wow, 14 pounds is nothing to take lightly...that is amazing. Congratulations!

I've done WW before now (and am doing it now, duh) and lost 100 pounds on it so it does work. The only downfall is that you do sort of become point-obsessed. The good news is that if you do it for long enough, you start to know exactly what food is what point value and sort of fall into a pattern. So, yay...here's to that!

Hilly said...

Oh and by the way, losing weight and talking about it? So NOT shallow.

AmyTree said...

OMG I am SO pleased for you!!! 14 pounds is a massive milestone here - it's actually a 'stone' in weight and so is especially noteworthy. I have been really REALLY crabby and uncomfortable lately and I suspect it's that I am over my 1/2 stone (7lbs!) 'comfort zone' and now everything is just that little bit tight... Jeans are going in the bin and I am trying to make myself wait to buy new ones because there's noting quite so depressing as jeans that don't fit!
I'm envious and you're inspiring - keep it up!! xxx

Princess of the Universe said...

Sheila- thanks for the support- on with the vanity! xo

Karen- Good thing I'm not a drinker!

Hilly- that's a relief - not shallow - but possibly tedious!

AmyT- I always wondered what a stone was. Why 14 and not 15 I wonder??

xo

WendyB said...

Congrats on 14 lbs. Who would dare judge you for wanting to feel happy with your body? I'll smack a bitch for that.

SoMi's Nilsa said...

Congrats on the weight loss. 14 pounds is a huge accomplishment!

My husband and I are doing Jenny Craig. Like you, we spend hundreds of dollars on fresh food. It's no wonder there is a correlation between lower income brackets and obesity. They can't afford to eat healthy. Crap, we can barely afford to eat healthy!

Kyla Roma said...

Okay, 14 lbs is HUGE! Let's not pretend it's not!!!

I think that if the shallow reasons for losing weight have side benefits like making your more healthy, then I don't think it's a bad thing unless you get fixated on it.

Maybe to draw focus away from the foodieness of your life you could meal plan? I know, it's geeky, but it can mean that you go shopping once a week instead of every day, and that might help you feel like your life is less about point counting and everything because you'll have already tallied up the big meals! =)

Rock Chef said...

Congrats on the 14 pounds! How about a vblog when you are ready to show off?

I have heard that this motive is the most effective of all - "You're going to die" being a distant second, I hear :-)

Elle Bee... said...

Dude, your reasons are just fine.

Congrats on losing 14lbs. That's awesome. By the sounds of it, you've been doing amazing at sticking with it. You have far better sticking power than I do.

Keep it up, lady! And vent anytime.

Lynda said...

I've done Weight Watchers three times.

The first time, I was a perfectionist about it. I would track every little thing.

The second time, I wasn't ready to do it again. I failed miserable. I also had someone who wasn't supportive of me going with me to the meetings to sabotage me.

This is my third time. If I go out with friends, which seems to happen a lot more lately, I try to focus on healthy. It isn't always easy and sometimes I get fries with my burger. But more importantly, I try to listen to when my body is full. Because I figure if I get to a point where I don't want to track, I'll have to learn the difference between full and stuffed.

 
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